“Anger in an engine is powerful. It can drive as forward; it can get us through the dreadful moments and give us real inner power.” Scila Elworthy
If you are afraid it is a good idea to write down your fears, no matter how absurd they may appear and rationalise them. At a talk with Professor Donald Hutton, an academic who has done extensive research on witches and Druidism, he pointed out that the witch trials in Early Modern Europe from the 15th – 17th centuries were driven by hysteria but that there is nothing more distressing than the illness of a child or the death of a child. The belief in and fear of someone who has the capacity to harm children is all consuming. Today that fear is acute. After fear, anger is the emotion that grips me. Once we realised that it’s OK to feel this emotion we can feel courage.
If you decide to investigate a friend’s house, go with an open mind. If you start to feel ill before you go, get a headache, feel cold, be warned that something already knows you are on your way. Drive diligently. Wear a black crystal on your person; Say a prayer into it for protection, breath shamanic breath onto it. Ask whoever protects you, your power animal or guardians to create shield around you. If you get there and it’s all too much, too scary and perhaps you feel out of your depth – stick to your plan. Even if the odds are stacked against you – if you have a plan, stick to it. Do what you came to do, because I can almost guarantee, that you will not be on your own and that you will have company in the form of those spirits who want to watch and help. Then, if your intuition is telling you to embellish – go for it.
Don’t run away or crack. Don’t think, oh maybe I won’t bother smudging the house, maybe I don’t need to say a prayer because that’s something interfering. Someone doesn’t want you to succeed. That’s the ghost or entity protecting its patch, its agenda and it is baffling you. Stay grounded, do your stuff and leave. If you can’t help the situation, bottle your pride, feel that embarrassment and ASK FOR HELP.
Be true to yourself
If you can’t help someone – be honest. If you go to someone’s house and you are out of your depth, Leave! If you tremble and are physically hit, protect yourself, give it your best shot and get out of there. There is no need to pretend you’re a super hero. Maybe the ghost is a woman who was murdered by a man and if you parade into that house with all your masculine heat and pride, she’ll freak. Maybe she needs a woman to sit with her, talk to her, understand her and help her move on. Maybe a different ghost doesn’t like women and maybe he’ll put up a stronger fight with a man that leave him vulnerable. Some ghosts don’t know they’re dead. That was a shock to me. And an even harder truth to convey to the said, dead person.
Don’t knock what you’ve inherited and keep your wits about you
We live in a world of deadlines and maps where we use 2% of our brains, where we are all trying to find our place in the world. We need to look at the world – our here and now, and if we still can’t work out our place in it or what our perfect job is, we simply need to do what we are good at. If can use our intuition to help find your place in the world, we can bring our past, present and future together. We need to teach our children to be sensitive human beings, in touch with their emotions and to trust their intuition. Schools are teaching Mindfulness but I wonder if for most children this is preaching to the converted. Children are already mindful, very aware of their environment and very aware of the negative news and influences. The negative news that is in the headlines and on our screens led to my depression at the age of fourteen. I was one of those very aware children who felt things and acknowledged a world that others didn’t. Mindfulness is only the first step, support networks, community and family are more important. I could not compartmentalise the Ethiopian famine that was constantly on the television, I could not understand why celebrities had to sing, Save The World, I couldn’t understand why we needed nuclear bombs. What was wrong with the world? I have from a very young age, known that all isn’t well in the world and that none of us are realising our potential. I am the sort of person who knows there is more to life than this. At fourteen I was on sleeping tablets and anti-depressants. Psychology sessions did nothing for me. They only pushed me further inside of myself and increased my barriers.